I am now a member of...

Monash science society
Society of Physics, astronomy and maths
Chocolate club
Sri Lankan society
Philosophy club
Biomed society
Commerce
IT

Probably more

Not sick, not well

Caffeine withdrawal sucks...

It is currently 4:48pm and I'm borderline passing out. Trying to spend all day learning stuff really wears you out more than most people would believe. I've spent the better part of the day sitting on this very chair and I am completely rooted.

In other news I recommend that everybody googles the black hole information paradox. Very interesting stuff. And is still very much unresolved.

up and down and back again

Time seems to be passing so quickly atm, not sure why. Seems I failed at not going out midweek and wasted today as a result. Sigh.

Stoked about Queensland. Can't wait for it. It's gonna be awesome.

Seems semester is coming up, kinda looking forward to tutoring/demonstrating again. It seems I have 4 classes to teach this semester, gonna keep me really busy with PhD stuff too but lots of money, between scholarship and that I'll be getting around $700 in my account every week. Crazy.

Who wants to rent somewhere with me?


Things seem to be picking up with Jo, but I think everybody has noticed that anyway. Still not official, but if/when it is facebook will tell you all :P

No need to explain the plan

Seems about time to look back and reflect on how each of us have grown and changed in the past year or so. It's not like we ever notice ourselves aging but every now and again you think, "fuck where did those years go?".

(spent some time trying to decide if it should be ageing or aging, both look odd but both are correct. Any opinions here?)

So I started typing up whether or not I thought people had got where they wanted to be and if they seemed on track but then decided it was a little too judgemental because who am I to say what's on track etc. Though I do need to comment about the ever expanding, contracting and splitting "group" that was once so tight. We're certainly splitting up a whole lot quicker than before. There's the ones that are peeling away to spend more time with their respective partners and occupations and then there's the ones who are out boozing it up partaking in random craziness on a regular basis and there is also a bunch of us floating in between. Not that it isn't expected, I just find myself at somewhat of a junction. Where do I want to be?

I want a little from each side I think, so maybe I'll keep floating in the middle. I wish we had more decent weekend nights out though, so uni doesn't suffer, the fact that I'm blogging at uni is bad enough. I think we need some good solid nights out in a new atmosphere. Also I still really wish I could get outta home into my own place but I don't see that happening in a hurry these days.

What the hell am I doin here? X539

I'm in one of those old "weird moods" where I don't quite feel myself and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because this is the first day in a while that I haven't had an energy drink in the morning. Maybe I should crack that V in the fridge.

I wish I was special..


Still haven't spoken to my dad. I had Rob spend all day on facebook the other day convincing me that I should, and how he's a good person and how much he misses me. Made me feel pretty down. If it was just one fight that went wrong then who cares I'd have forgiven him. It's not even that I'm overly annoyed at him anymore, I just don't really want to be near him again. He's not a very good person and one of my biggest fears is to end up like him. I don't see how I can possibly owe it to him to try to make amends, he writes off people in his life all the time. Though I guess that's me being like him there isn't it. Why do I feel so guilty?

As far as my love life, who the fuck knows...

If love were a whisper

We're all somebody's love and somebody's jerk. We're all trying to fit into a mold that doesn't really exist... Ok so don't really know exactly what I'm saying with that but it inspired me to attempt to write a song (or a poem with a basic chord structure jammed on to it :P ) If I get anywhere with it I'll publish it here, if not who cares it's entertaining me.

So far to add the the man-whore comments I've been getting, Rach called me a girly boy and Jo said I have gay features... wtf. To top it off, the usher at "Zanna, Don't" thought me and Rick were a couple. Albeit the Audience was 95% gay it was still a bit wtf.

I'm in such a strange mood today. Tired and confused.

Who wants to go to dreamworld/white water world for a weekend in march? Seems weekend flights aren't as cheap as midweek so the return flights are probably gonna be about $220 depending on when we go. Say the same for two nights accom but split between however many people come. so Hopefully we get at least 4 of us so accom would be only in the $50 ballpark... Any takers?

Another round

Currently posting to distract myself from an extremely painful back. Hopefully it goes away before tonight, for "Zanna, Don't". Well other distractions showed up an hour ago so it's mostly gone now. Woo!

I took today off uni since I'd have to leave early for tonight and woulda had to drive separately from Ben and then I'd have left even earlier since I didn't have to stay for him, then I guess the nail in the coffin was the back this morning.

I should really still try to do something relevant today, but it's so hot and I haven't played guitar in ages and I'm really enjoying just sitting here with music on.



I often say on this thing how I've changed recently. Been changing along the same direction as every other time I've said it, but it feels like in the last 2 months it's been somewhat more rapid. I feel happier but I still don't know if the change is a good thing. Last night I introduced myself as an alcoholic and a manwhore.