If love were a whisper

We're all somebody's love and somebody's jerk. We're all trying to fit into a mold that doesn't really exist... Ok so don't really know exactly what I'm saying with that but it inspired me to attempt to write a song (or a poem with a basic chord structure jammed on to it :P ) If I get anywhere with it I'll publish it here, if not who cares it's entertaining me.

So far to add the the man-whore comments I've been getting, Rach called me a girly boy and Jo said I have gay features... wtf. To top it off, the usher at "Zanna, Don't" thought me and Rick were a couple. Albeit the Audience was 95% gay it was still a bit wtf.

I'm in such a strange mood today. Tired and confused.

Who wants to go to dreamworld/white water world for a weekend in march? Seems weekend flights aren't as cheap as midweek so the return flights are probably gonna be about $220 depending on when we go. Say the same for two nights accom but split between however many people come. so Hopefully we get at least 4 of us so accom would be only in the $50 ballpark... Any takers?

Another round

Currently posting to distract myself from an extremely painful back. Hopefully it goes away before tonight, for "Zanna, Don't". Well other distractions showed up an hour ago so it's mostly gone now. Woo!

I took today off uni since I'd have to leave early for tonight and woulda had to drive separately from Ben and then I'd have left even earlier since I didn't have to stay for him, then I guess the nail in the coffin was the back this morning.

I should really still try to do something relevant today, but it's so hot and I haven't played guitar in ages and I'm really enjoying just sitting here with music on.



I often say on this thing how I've changed recently. Been changing along the same direction as every other time I've said it, but it feels like in the last 2 months it's been somewhat more rapid. I feel happier but I still don't know if the change is a good thing. Last night I introduced myself as an alcoholic and a manwhore.

You've all be so nice to me

I'm going to try to keep this thing more frequently updated these days. The last week has been a blur. A very alcoholic Song 2.

I know I say this far too much, but I should really cut back on the drinking. I need a non-alcoholic alternative to fun.

I should really put more focus on uni stuff from now on.

I'm your leading deletion

I said that I wouldn't get drunk last night. Then I went ahead and got drunk anyway. Damn it. Oh well, it happens.

As fun as getting wasted and finding women can be, I'm beginning to dislike my new years resolution. I should start accepting bets on when I'll crack and end up with a girlfriend. :S

Chelsea Dagger

Ok since I made this new blog it's pissing me off that I couldn't get chapter-five instead or anything similar. Though I guess it could be construed (thank-you Chrome's spell checker) as a new volume instead. I usually make a new blog around about an epiphany or sorts. Also my speakers have finally died, so I don't have and music on to pick an appropriate title, going to have to hi-jack Kev's computer to sort that one out soon.

Life in general is fairly good. As always I can (and will) complain but overall I'm fairly happy. Complaints include massive bouts of self-doubt with this Ph.D but they come and go. Most of today I spent sitting thinking no idea what is going on... then at 4.30 I managed a really simple short calculation which really doesn't get me any closer to any goals but it was just enough to make me feel like I'm actually doing something.

Also I think this place is as good as any to clear up what people have apparently been saying about myself and Jo. I don't know who's said what but I've heard from a few people that it's been spoken about at least at some point and most of you seemed to have the wrong idea. Primarily I want to say, no I'm not leading her on whatsoever. A few people have said stuff along the line's that she really likes me where I'm pretty certain this is wrong. We spoke about it because people saying this to me forced me to bring it up with her on several occasions and again with Nat to confirm. Also a few people have been badmouthing her and the people who have been don't know her so I don't understand where that comes from. All that having been said now, I'm sticking to my resolution and not trying to jump into another relationship for the sake of it. But I still think she's hot :P

I've found this single life great for being able to go out and get wasted and do what I like without upsetting anybody but I must confess, I still hate the sitting around at night watching tv alone. And the no sex thing really sucks too.

This is the last song

I know I'm notorious for changing my blog address, but sometimes I just feel like a change. When I look back and read old blogs, I like to think each blog as a different volume in the story that is my life. Maybe one day I'll publish the writers notes; 'Appendix A'.

Well I'm a PhD student, I'm making it in to uni 4 days a week at the moment, hopefully soon I'll make it 5. I still don't know what I'm doing, but I feel like I'm at least learning something. Slowly. Though my first lot of money came in finally, so I can do stuff again. I've managed to keep myself rather busy lately and I'm starting to feel good about everything again.